Annual Social Media Fast

There is a never-doneness to my work. That is why I am so happy to take the summer off and be with my family. I mean, of course, I will still work. I will reply to emails and I’m excited to paint. But, the unendingness of it all–the constant feeling that I am behind–that the virtual stack of papers is growing instead of shrinking–that is already behind me. read more

Summer update

Hello!

Happy summer! Maybe because I was an August baby, I just love, love, love summertime. I love swimming and playing and the way time slows to a crawl in the summer–slow, nectar–dripping time.

Summer usually means I get the sheer privilege of fewer deadlines and emails so I can just surrender to my children and family–to just BE with them. Just be. To feel the exotic bliss of boredom…for my kids and me. Real-live, honest-to-goodness boredom. To just make dinner and organize the house and live really simply–eating watermelon, doing puzzles and seeing movies. After reading The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up this winter, I plan to get very Marie Kondo with my house and my life this summer. (And I’m already very Marie Kondo.) read more

Anniversary post

15 years today, my Love, we stood under that Lysiloma tree at the Hermosa Inn and it rained pungent yellow puff balls down on us. You with your fever caused by that exotic illness lurking in you– and then on top of that– 105 degrees that day. And me in my little glasses and my 89 dollar white dress. We walked down the aisle to Miles Davis’ Kind of Blue coming from a boom box– tinny and soft– too quiet to fill the space. And it was perfect. We made those vows that we would later break– I vowed that I would be the raft if ever one of us was sinking– and much later we would sink. And I wasn’t the raft. I wasn’t ready to surrender or to be a woman just yet– but I knew one thing: I loved you. Then. And now. And you weren’t quite ready to be a man– but you would do. And here you are. And look at you now. We grew up together– in the Arizona desert for the past 20 years. The first decade was just us… waiting. Waiting, in a sense, for our parents to come home. But they never did. And so we became the parents. Our son came in and forever changed us– and we no longer orbited each other. We orbited him. And then he got sick– and you vanished behind the wallpaper– I grew up enough for both of us. And then he got well. But your dad didn’t. But then, our baby girl came into the world. So ready. Just in time. And then I lost you– for the first time. And you broke my heart. And, come to find out, I had unwittingly broken yours years before. I’m still sorry for that. We broke our vows, perhaps. But not on purpose. Because since the day I met you– and turned around in line to see the beauty of you smile at me– you have been my home. And even this year, I have wanted to tear down the walls of you and us. But, there we are again, best friends. Lovers. Champions. Warriors. Kids. Together. Remember when Pat said she had never seen two people muscle test stronger together than they were apart? We probably test stronger apart now– 15 years later. Stronger as individuals– maybe–but so very strong together. We did it. I am more proud of you than I have ever been. You have stepped into the fullness of you and it is beautiful to witness– if hard to endure the fourth year of school. It was worth it. Your compassion, intelligence and unflappability are my bedrock. And if I could write my vows again today– I’d say this: I vow to honor you and treat you as gently as the beautiful little boy you once were– to stare into your eyes as often as possible– to listen more and talk less– to remember the Us that used to wait around– for days and hours for our parents to come home– just being– just enjoying each other– making dinner– being alive– together. I love you. Happy anniversary.

a drop of black | how colors change with our life

I just found this post from a year ago. It never got published and so I’m sending it out today. A little intuitive color theory from a personal place:

I have always thought it was that grown-ups were afraid of color…that we lose our way over the course of life and end up in the mire of putty, taupe, grey and beige because we become afraid of expressing ourselves and our feelings through color. I owned a business for over 15 years in which I helped people choose shades of taupe, raw sienna and murky purple for their walls and I painted them to look old and soft. I also painted murals. And have since lectured on color theory many times and even cited this putty-taupe-grey business as a sad affair that afflicts grown-ups but never children. Children know exactly which colors they love and they are almost always bright. But tonight, I have absolutely changed my thoughts on this in a shocking realization: read more

Tuning in for the New Year

This is the second in a series of posts this week leading up to teaching you to make Vision Boards and other activities on New Year’s Day.

First we have to tune in–to slow down–to listen. If your life is anything like mine it is noisy even when it is quiet. I have young children and there is a wonderful constantness to this part of life. Even if I am not particularly busy, the moments, hours and days are very full and constantly noisy. It is hard to listen to the urges from my heart when there is so much pulling me to distraction–even if it is good distraction. And so we have to carve out some time from the noise. read more